PATHETIC .
Monday, July 18, 2011 // 5:44 AM
Hey guys ,
Its been awhile since i blog , i just had to blog .. i don't really know where else to let out this disappointment. Atleast nobody will be reading it. Today Band was really like shit super shit. Seeing Putri cry , i felt like such a failure. I regret laughing & still be happy when Mr Pan left us. Whats there to be happy about ? Do i even deserve it. I dont wholely blame the Band or the juniors. I blame myself. I'm a major , shouldn't i lead them to success. What the fuck am i even doing ? Seeing the band dying like that .. No respect , no discipline , no sense of remorse or shame. Should i be proud ? Would the seniors ever wana come back ? NO , OF COURSE NOT. FUCKING NO. They don't know the seniors are there whom actually care for them. Do you actually see that they are struggling to try and come to band. To visit us ? That is so good. They really should appreciate it , they should really apreciate that their seniors fucking , really fucking care about them. My seniors never actually came back. IF i force , then they will. Me , having a bad past ..doesnt mean i must follow them , i want to change. I'm already trying my best to change the Saxophone sect. I really wonder .. i now know what it really fucking feels like to be a major. I really want the band to change , REALLY CHANGE. HOW ? HOW ? God , please help me. I really feel so horrible .. i want to fucking die. i hate this , i hate it so much !
PATHETIC .
Monday, July 18, 2011 // 5:44 AM
Hey guys ,
Its been awhile since i blog , i just had to blog .. i don't really know where else to let out this disappointment. Atleast nobody will be reading it. Today Band was really like shit super shit. Seeing Putri cry , i felt like such a failure. I regret laughing & still be happy when Mr Pan left us. Whats there to be happy about ? Do i even deserve it. I dont wholely blame the Band or the juniors. I blame myself. I'm a major , shouldn't i lead them to success. What the fuck am i even doing ? Seeing the band dying like that .. No respect , no discipline , no sense of remorse or shame. Should i be proud ? Would the seniors ever wana come back ? NO , OF COURSE NOT. FUCKING NO. They don't know the seniors are there whom actually care for them. Do you actually see that they are struggling to try and come to band. To visit us ? That is so good. They really should appreciate it , they should really apreciate that their seniors fucking , really fucking care about them. My seniors never actually came back. IF i force , then they will. Me , having a bad past ..doesnt mean i must follow them , i want to change. I'm already trying my best to change the Saxophone sect. I really wonder .. i now know what it really fucking feels like to be a major. I really want the band to change , REALLY CHANGE. HOW ? HOW ? God , please help me. I really feel so horrible .. i want to fucking die. i hate this , i hate it so much !
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