Always Ignored.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011 // 11:39 PM
Sometimes it feels sad that I'm always being ignored by people. Especially by those whom i really loved...
Whenever i want to say something , they won't listen so might as well not talk bout it. Telling them out to friends is really hard cause I'm always afraid that i get emotional. Le sigh , especially the guy I liked. Yup , true i know that he won't like me. But the fact that I was ignored is quite hurtful. I still remember how , he didn't wished me for my birthday but the other 580++ friends of his, he wished. I feel like he knows , and he dislikes me. Here goes me being emo. I'm not ! I just feel sad , why can't i be beautiful. Why can't i be slimmer. I feel like another piece of junk people just throw away..
Even my family and friends. It's either they're too busy talking to someone else or I'm just invicible to their naked eye. Seriously , even wanting to go out with my friends for TGIF Friday feels like its not gonna happen because they're busy with some convocation shit. FCK life man , always. I wish I can tell him , how i liked him and how hurt i always feel. I wish i can curse him and throw rocks at his fucking good looking face. I wish i can do the same to my friends too. But somehow , the bad past disallows me to do so , and I , am not a person who wants to create any bloody attention. I used to be an attention seeker , maybe probably but not now. I don't like to be known for the wrong things. Well , actually ..I'm not even known. Nobody actually knows me. I'm not even popular with guys. I don't have a fucking boyfriend. Nor a guy bestfriend who would always be there for me. Even my friends have alot of fucking guys who liked her. But me ? NONE. And I'm just sitting there like some fucking shithole loner. Even my friend who has never been liked , has a guy whom is from L.A who liked her. I'M A FUCKING LONER. Yeah , because why ? I look like a man. Some shithole guy just said so. I looked like a guy, if he ever fucking realise that that is the most hurtful thing to say , i forgive him. But he thinks it's some kind of bloody compliment. How angry would i feel. If only , someone knows , maybe i won't feel like throwing a rock at their fucking face. I hate this life, I hate this body. I hate myself and I hate every single shit about me.
Labels: and i know that., I'm fat, stupid, ugly
Always Ignored.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011 // 11:39 PM
Sometimes it feels sad that I'm always being ignored by people. Especially by those whom i really loved...
Whenever i want to say something , they won't listen so might as well not talk bout it. Telling them out to friends is really hard cause I'm always afraid that i get emotional. Le sigh , especially the guy I liked. Yup , true i know that he won't like me. But the fact that I was ignored is quite hurtful. I still remember how , he didn't wished me for my birthday but the other 580++ friends of his, he wished. I feel like he knows , and he dislikes me. Here goes me being emo. I'm not ! I just feel sad , why can't i be beautiful. Why can't i be slimmer. I feel like another piece of junk people just throw away..
Even my family and friends. It's either they're too busy talking to someone else or I'm just invicible to their naked eye. Seriously , even wanting to go out with my friends for TGIF Friday feels like its not gonna happen because they're busy with some convocation shit. FCK life man , always. I wish I can tell him , how i liked him and how hurt i always feel. I wish i can curse him and throw rocks at his fucking good looking face. I wish i can do the same to my friends too. But somehow , the bad past disallows me to do so , and I , am not a person who wants to create any bloody attention. I used to be an attention seeker , maybe probably but not now. I don't like to be known for the wrong things. Well , actually ..I'm not even known. Nobody actually knows me. I'm not even popular with guys. I don't have a fucking boyfriend. Nor a guy bestfriend who would always be there for me. Even my friends have alot of fucking guys who liked her. But me ? NONE. And I'm just sitting there like some fucking shithole loner. Even my friend who has never been liked , has a guy whom is from L.A who liked her. I'M A FUCKING LONER. Yeah , because why ? I look like a man. Some shithole guy just said so. I looked like a guy, if he ever fucking realise that that is the most hurtful thing to say , i forgive him. But he thinks it's some kind of bloody compliment. How angry would i feel. If only , someone knows , maybe i won't feel like throwing a rock at their fucking face. I hate this life, I hate this body. I hate myself and I hate every single shit about me.
Labels: and i know that., I'm fat, stupid, ugly
i'm Nadirah .
Not your usual talkative person
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